FastandFading

I feel myself falling back into depression. 

Why is it that every time you hit rock bottom you think this is it if I can handle this I can make it through anything and then BAM the next thing you know everything is ten times worse and your clinging to anything to keep you alive. You feel like your drowning in yourself. And subtly but importantly things get worse. Lay in bed a little longer, eat a little more, skip that class again. And still you show a smiling face to the world. It scares me to think about whats gonna happen on the day I can no longer smile anymore.