December 2011
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Reblog if it's okay to invade your ask box.
beautifulfuckeduplife asked: Are you scared that you'll get pulled out of classes? I hope that things will get better for you. I'm here if you need to talk. I work from home so I'm online a lot. Just send me a message. You know, I feel really hopeful for you. You're not resistant to getting help so things might turn around for you soon. When you're ready, the Universe gives you the help you need.
beautifulfuckeduplife asked: Aahhh, I understand that feeling. I quit running for a year because of depression and it took me a while to get back into it. I gained weight and I didn't feel confident to run again. But it's not so bad. Just put on some music and block out the world. But it's really up to you. :) Yeah, therapy is expensive. But doesn't your school have a counselor or someone that you're...
beautifulfuckeduplife asked: Oooohhh have you tried running? I'm not just saying this because I'm a runner, but running is awesome for me-time and for clearing your head. It's like active meditation. Hehe. What are you in college for? Maybe you just need to take time to figure things out for yourself. And don't be afraid to get professional help. Sometimes, we need reinforcement. This year has also been...
beautifulfuckeduplife asked: Yeah, I read your reply just now. :) So you really don't have any other thing that keeps you going? Plans, interests, dreams, anything? The little bits of happiness really do help. I don't know if it's the same thing for you, but it works for me sometimes.
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When I read everyone else’s problems I think, “how could she feel that way shes not fat at all! Shes absolutely gorgeous!” then i look at myself and feel only loathing. I guess its because I really am fat and gross.
beautifulfuckeduplife asked: Naaah, it's not dumb. I know how it is to try again only to have things fall apart. It gets tiring, doesn't it? Sometimes it's enough to make you want to give up. But from the sound of it, it seems like you're not ready to do that. Give up, I mean. (I don't know if you already got this message. My internet messed up so I'm sending it again just in case.)
beautifulfuckeduplife asked: Naaah, it's not dumb. I know how it is to try again only to have things fall apart. It gets tiring, doesn't it? Sometimes it's enough to make you want to give up. But from the sound of it, it seems like you're not ready to do that. Give up, I mean.
beautifulfuckeduplife asked: Do you know what triggered these habits to resurface? Have you been under stress lately?
beautifulfuckeduplife asked: What habits?
beautifulfuckeduplife asked: I'm here if you need to talk. :)
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Why is there no one to talk to.
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Realization
I realized something today. I dont know how I diddnt notice sooner. Every time I start to feel anything I take my nails and I push them into my skin. Anywhere really sometimes my nail beds sometimes my thighs, my arms, the back of my neck. I guess unconsciously I’ve been growing my nails out because today I felt it. Really felt it blood and all, the crescent shaped marks. I looked for the...
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Why Should I
Why should I drag myself out of bed?
I promise i’m more comfortable here.
The blankets don’t have eyes,
to crush me.
The blankets don’t have thorns,
to rake across my skin.
The darkness doesn’t let me
look into the mirror.
What can I do to escape
my mind?